I will always be a freespirit, whether society expect me to act different or not. I’m open minded and don’t like people that’s small minded. I got a big heart & craving for adventure. I got a big desire to explore and I have the feeling for wanderlust all the time. I got friends of both genders and I don’t see any problem with that. I don’t like the feeling that I’m tied to obligations or persons that helds me back. This post is a philosophy about life and my experiences when I lost one of the things I care about the most, my freedom. I have a body of a woman, a soul of a child, a mind of the free and the heart of the wild..
I choose to see the good in everyone, even though I get disappointed from time to time. I see the colors of people personalities and auras, not their ”race or skin color”. I believe in peace and freedom, maybe I’m somewhat a mix between a hippie girl and a gipsy. My ex boyfriend didn’t share my view of life and he was filled with judgement that he poured all over the place. He must have been filled with a lot of hate, because too often that was all I heard or experienced with him. He held me back, from friends, family and life in total.
He isolated me, and broke me down. Put me through beatings both physical and emotional abuse, until I lost everything that stood for me. He was trying to ‘build the perfect woman’ (like a perfect being exist for the records) like He was ordering personality traits or looks from a catalog. I wasn’t enough for him, and I didn’t fit inside his box (even though I should have shoved that box up his a long time earlier) I was honestly scared for my life because of that psycho, and he honestly threaten to kill my whole family if I didn’t play along with his sick games.. I might tell you more in details in the future, but at the moment I’m having thoughts about my safety and will keep the details for myself. But then one day, after he had beaten me up so bad I had to go to the dental to get my tooths back in place I finally had enough.
I decided That Never again will I be offended, beaten, harassed, made small, threathened and be treated like a human doll again. So I started to figure out how I would leave him. And even though it took quite some time, I finally had my freedom back (these type of guys are very dangerous). Never again will I allow myself to be treated like that again, and never again will I never lose my personality, view of life and my freedom. I was born into this world as a free spirit and I’ll leave this world as a freespirit ❤️.
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Hey everyone, Have you ever heard about the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI)? It was developed from a work by the known psychiatrist Carl G. Jung which refers to 16 personality types. I’m an ENFP personality, such as Anne Frank, Walt Disney, Che Guevara, Ellen Degeneres, Robin Williams, Ricky Gervais, Janis Joplin, Ozzy Osbourne, Gwen Stephanie, Bob Dylan, Will Smith, Robert Downey Jr. Quentin Tarantino etc. I feel that I’m in good company haha 😉.
Some of the characteristic traits ENFP has is; charming, risk-takers, people oriented, observant, fun, easily bored, curious, passionate, spontaneous, energetic, understanding, charismatic, independent, compassionate, open-minded, friendly, creative, outgoing, very emotional, adventurous, intuition, visionary, flexible, adaptable, idealists etc. Only 7 % about the worlds population are ENFP’s.
Do you know what personality type you belong to? Feel free to comment your type below ❤️.
Reasontly I discovered the power of meditation and yoga, yeah sounds like a cliche, I know. But there is some super power that comes with it, you get this feeling of relaxation in your whole body. I was into meditating when I was younger but lost my routines for quite some time, but I’m happy I found my passion for it again. I don’t know about you guys, but I’m an easily stressed person and that’s when I love to take some time of and just invest into myself. It put my mind at ease while giving me some balance. I’m also one of them over thinkers as much as I am a day dreamer and a night thinker. And when I think, I tend to think a lot.. So when being stressed I meditate, train, practice yoga, do creative stuff or write mostly, smile.
So After a long boat trip with some meditation over seas, I decided to go for a swimming session. I won’t lie, my training routines haven’t been the best lately. So I’m kind of trying to improve my self and get better, that’s why the midnight swim lmfao. I will most definitely freeze my ass of, but shit happens, right? You only live ones 😎, so let’s just say I’m on out on another of my adventures, big smile.
I’ve always had a thing for the wild, for the forest, for the animals and for the nature. Since I was a child I’ve been having this craving to explore, to go on adventures and make memories. When I walk into the wild I get an inner peace, and my inner child awakes. I get such inner peace and feel such harmony as I walk alone, surrounded by the wild. It kind of ease my mind and silence my thoughts. For a while it’s just me and the sound of nature, and the feeling of wanderlust which consumes me..
I live in the capital city of Sweden (Stockholm), and here we have mixed city with nature, depending on where you’re located or where you’re at. I feel safe where I live. I know the people and I feel secure in the environment. Far away from my psycho ex (which I talked about in my first blog post). I know if anything would happen to me, I have a great safety net of people that would stand my ground and have my back. But enough about him.
I would love to just follow my desire and runaway to explore new places. To just save money and explore the world more. To find these hidden beautiful spots and create great memories at. That’s life ladies and gentlemen. Fill your life with memories and experiences, not things. Have stories to tell, not stuff to show. We weren’t born just to pay bills and die. Wanderlust.. Let’s runaway and be adventurous darling ❤️.
(Outfit of the day)
Hey dolls, I hope everyone has had an amazing day. Today I had a bit of a dress up & put together a pretty nice black outfit. I Love fashion, & style and I’ve Been working as a model, so I have a LOT fun with playing dress up. You should do it aswell sometime, just find a reason or for no reason for it and just take some pictures with friends just looking your best.
Well, As I waited for the train to come, my thoughts started wandering. I’ve Been having a lot of thoughts about how life is a journey, and for every destination it’s required a new you. At my current destination I feel like I have to be there for my family more than ever. I also feel it in my heart that I need to make these necessary changes.. currently I’m growing through what I’m going through ❤️🌺.
I went for a city walk after visiting my dad. This is a lovely view to just sit and meditate to. I usually drift away in My thoughts, dreaming about My goals in life.. once upon a time, I had a certain someone who stood in my way. Never again. And now he is gone, so No more excuses. Let the journey begin 🌸. Believe in yourselfs 💋. And never let anyone stand in your way for your dreams dolls 💖.
Hi there, welcome and thank you for visiting my new blog. I’m Jennilyn Von Janzen, and I’m 28 year old woman from Stockholm, Sweden. I usually hangout at my pinterest, but I decided I wanted to try out this blogging thing and who knows, I might enjoy it. But who am I? Well, I came up with the name Jennilyn Von Janzen while I had a struggle in life. I had reasontly left a toxic abusive relationship and was fighting hard to put back the broken pieces together again. My posts was much about inner strength, my fighter spirit, wisedom from lessons learned, sharing experiences, just as much as I mixed it with what I call ‘a bitchy vibe of attitude/humor’. I also spend time trying to lift up others, that’s going through a hard time in life with some good vibes. I mixed that with my hobbies and intrests such as interior, training, fitspo, beauty, fashion, photoshoots, wanderlust, lifestyle, luxury and glam etc. All these things my ex told me I could never do. So I kinda sad fuck off plain and simple with my account, great right?! Big Smile.
Overtime it formed a receipt together and Jennilyn Von Janzen was born. A real and still fictional woman who fought for her right of being herself and for her freedom, while she had a sense of humor during the pain and the experiences (yeah I always had a bad taste of humor bytheway). While finding herself through the shitstorm, and having fun posting all stuff that her narcissist ex boyfriend told her not to do. And that’s what I call awesome dear ladys and gents. I’m such a fucking lady, I know lmfao!
At this blog I will be mixing up inspiration and sharing my thoughts and experiences. I hope you will be reading and following my blog, and while your at it, feel free to post a comment or two. I hope you got an idea of who I am as a person, and where I’m from. Kisses.
/Sincerely, Jennilyn Von Janzen
Ps. Big ups to my dear friend Citty Costas for giving me the courage to start blogging. Thank you hun 😘.